Well heres a little bio about me, not meant as a poem

Im that guy without the abs, im the one who doesnt take the myspace pics while flexing in a wife beater, im not the proud "babe magnet" im not the follower. Im not the guy who skips from girl to girl to girl, im not the guy who doesnt remember his girlfriends lastnam

im the guy that is an individual, the one always thinking about you, the one who respects women, the one who strives to be smart, the one who uses big words, the unique one

Im the person who is inspired by the most random things, im the person who can take a thought an make it into a thousand words, im the person that wants a llama and not a dog, im the person that will do anything to keep his real friends close by

Im the one who begs for attention, im the one you always describe

im the one you'll never notice

Its not who you are but who you hang out with

That’s conflicting in my eyes, but then again who would I be without my friends, my real friends, the kind that write a single paragraph that can make my week, someone told me I have so much potential to have a social life, and have lots of friends, that is blasphemy (ha-ha big word) it’s sad that there are people so shallow that they can easily conceive betraying and leaving their true friends just to climb up the social ladder. I was so offended when she said that. I may not be popular. Hell I’m a freak, but I’m more than content with my friends, I don't care how much my friends are "dragging me down". To hell with my "potential" I don't give a crap to the shallow population you all know that I jumped off the deep end a long time ago ;).

Midnight fears

First off, I haven’t posted in a while, but hell only like 2 people read this. So after falling asleep at 3:30 and waking up at 8:00 you can understand how I’m awake. Sigh I have some growing issues and fears and secrets.

1] I don’t think people see me when they talk to me.
2] I’m like one out of ten Freshman/Highschoolers who wants a long term relationship
3]I don't know why but I whenever I like a girl I wonder what it would be like if we got married and if you know me I have all the elaborate details (weird huh?)
4] I think I’m losing my "smartness"
5] I need someone to tell all this stuff to
6]I am so afraid of losing my friends, I realized that today when I was in the guidance counselors office talking about college, I’m afraid I’ll drift from all my friends (well the few I have)
7] I’m such a hypocrite, I've told people to live for now and not the past or future, but all I do is dwell on the future
8] I want someone
9] Classical music in the middle of the night with my eyes closed does something wonderful to me (weirdddd)
10] I love being a weirdo but hate how that’s all people see in me
11] I think sometimes I get too much into being an individual, but I’m perfectly fine with that
12] There’s so much to say.

I’ve noticed that late at night I’m most emotionally unstable. What the hell is up with that?

So.

I dont know what to say, new ipod this week :D. i finally went out and had fun, but ive noticed,every girl is writing poems and every girl loves photography, and evry girl says the same thing about guys, theres no individuality. I only know two people who can actually write, and One who is actually good at photography, it pisses me off that everyone wants to be the same thing, im sue there are people who enjoy that stuff instead of just thinking "oh every likes it so must I", just figured i'd post my little rant.

ipods,german,fat

thats my life, i cant wait til i get my new ipod, i totally want to speak german, and im gaining weight.

Stealing

Jamie-Life has been uneventful lately and each day is a common routine that just drags on, feburary and march are he slowest months of the year so im bracing myself for suicide attempts
Cali- well i too have had a strange urge to learn new languages maybe after having talked aboiut it today, but i want to learn german and russian, tow of the more fascinating languages in my opinion,
well theres me being totally un original